Random blabber that noone gives a hoot about (Kvelding)

This feeling won't dissapear. Feels somewhat like a big chunk of sadness in my chest. Been here since yesterday. I feel... lonely, and yet it doesn't feel like the absence of people around me is the case. What you think will make things better usually also relates to the cause of the problem, but not really this time. I suppose the lack of joy that I'm currently experiencing simply is because there hasn't been much joyful things that's happened lately. I might also be affected by the pain of others. This could be a good thing too, I suppose. Serious things are happening, and it's actually surprising that I don't feel more down than I do. Still, I've got the feeling that this is just temporary, and with any luck I've shaken off this feeling in a few days.

I just wonder why... It could be that it's been a while since our last movie-night, and I have grown to enjoy the company of my friends quite a bit. One year ago I only saw problems in school, but now I've grown to look forward to it. Of course, beginning College (or whatever I'm attending to is called in English) makes school far more challanging now than before, but I also just love the people here. I look forward to meet them. I would not have belived that one year ago. It is just a pity I'm always so tired, and that the days pass so quick... I only have one more "real" day of school, and then I will have two months of lonliness. A pity you can't combine freetime and time with all your friends (since some will be gone, and we're not exactly known for our ability to coordinate things such as meetings :P ).

I will just have to prey that things will be better for the people around me, and that I can be with the people I want to be with during the summer.